Thursday night. We met up and had something to eat. We were having a good chat about this and that. He knows I am gay but I was never sure about him.
I told him I fancied him.
I suppose I should be grateful about his reaction.
He said he didnt feel the same way back because he bats for the other side. But he was flattered and still was OK with everything. He talked about girlfriends so I guess now I know.
And now I feel such an idiot. Why did I say anything? Aaaaargh!!!!!

So I am of out in a moment. Tonights the big night.

... but James and I have arranged to go out for something to eat tomorrow night.

It's the closest we have come.

Mustn't read too much into it.

GOD he's gorgeous!

James came up to me today and we had a good chat. And he asked if we could go out either Thursday or Friday.

What did I say? YESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!! of course.

But we'll have to wait and see if it actually happens.

I dream of a kiss you know, but I may jumping several steps ahead there!

Im on study leave and I am (or I should be) revising hard.
That date never happened. Neither did the one we arranged for mid-week. We were going to go out Thursday night- but he had an accident Wednesday and has his leg in plaster. So he would even throw himself down the stairs and break his leg than go out with me

Maybe it will happen, maybe it wont. But I am running tou of time (in that respect) or perhaps I shouldnt worry about it.

Except when he smiles I melt!

Sorry for not being around too much, all this exam work is piling up.

James still smiles at me as if there was somthing more. I can't help but wonder (or is it my desires wanting too much). We never got round to going out, but he did text me this weekend. We may go out next Saturday. He kind of suggested next Saturdaym but we have made arrangements before without them going anywhere.

Perhaps I should give up..... but he is sooo gorgeous. Just looking into his blue eyes makes my knees weak!