So should I phone? or text? Is it too soon? or have I left it too late? Or should I wait until I have omething to say.

Why is this soo hard.... where's my schoolbag!

I was speaking to James today, and we were chatting about films and I said how much I liked Daniel Craig as Bond and he said "Really? He doesn't do anything for me". Now is that an indication? Or is it my imagination.

Oh and one step further... we have swapped mobile numbers

Oh and evn more embarrassing, after chatting, I had a boner , took a while to relax

He told me in the week that he couldnt come to the party, but part of me was still hoping. But he didnt come.
I feel so embarrassed now, I have made such a fool of myself.
And I also feel a bit down, because I like him so much and I dont think it's going to happen.

Anyone fancy cheering me up by telling me things like "You're still young" and "There's plenty of fish in the sea" or even "He doesn't deserve you"

I have spoken to James a couple of times this week, but not in any great depth. I keep thinking now that there may not be any real romance going to happen, but I am also thinking now that Paul B may be right in saying that to get a friend who enjoys my company and accepts me for who I am maybe even more valuable. Whether it happens or not, I have done well.

Accept I hope it really happens. Just a kiss would be nice

I have invited him to a party next Saturday. He hasnt said yes or no. I'll just have to wait and see

I wonder if anyone is interested in last nights party? It was quite a good night, I soent a bit of time with James but he was flitting around being very sociable. WE did dnace together (well not together- more the we were both dancing) and he seemed quite comfortable. He still smiles at me and it makes my knees go week.
He then told me that he looked for me on Friday after school to see if I wanted to go for a coffee, but I had already gone home. Damnit! Fate conspiring again. So I said "Why not next Friday" becuase that event that got cancelled on the snow day is being held on friday, but he is going away this weekend... Fate again.

I keep thinking about him. I saw his face when I woke up this morning.