We have been talking on and off, mostly instigated by me. The chats have been pleasant- but I wonder if we are going to enter that friends zone. You know, after a while we are too friendly to take it beyond. (Listen to me. I'm talking as if there was going to be a chance of something more)

I wish he wasnt so god damn gorgeous and I wish that he didnt make my knees weak when he smiles at me and I wish I didnt melt when he smiled at me and I wish I didnt think about him all the god damn time.