I went and chatted to that 'friend' of mine today. I wasn't going to mention where he worked, but I am now because they have been an arse to him. I told you that he worked at sports shop but moved to another shop. They gave him a permanent contract, which he accepted, and then two weeks later he found out they were closing the shop He is now being made redundant and needs to find another job. The thing is, they must have known the shop was clising when they offered him the job... The Bastards... At Whittards!

The guy who worked in the sports shop looked a little bit like him
:sigh:

But guess what.... I found him

DAMMIT!
He's gone and left his job. Perhaps I shouldn't have left it three week. Or perhaps it was my fault that he's gone. But apparently he has gone to somewhere else in town.

Now I am going to have to find out where. Talk about mission impossible

Or maybe I should leave it. Dammit.

He was so cute.

Perhaps the Gods are against me

I stayed in this weekend. lots of work to do. Didnt go to my favourite sports shop. Feeling nervous about it now. Maybe next weekend

When I popped into the sports shop yesterday morning, he asked me how school was. We had a bit of a chat that only lasted a few minutes, but it was nice. He has a nice smile.

I wonder what his name is?

I waved at him through the window (how embarrassed was I?). He smiled and waved back.

Well, I might as well mention it here seeing this blog is all about my crushes. Perhaps I should rename it the road to Man-de-Laid!

There's a cute guy that works in the sports shop in town. I bought a sports bag, which was high up on a shelf, and he had to climb a ladder to reach it. And man, has he got a nice Tush!

But I can't keep going in to buy things, it's looking a bit obvious.

"What are you doing" Darren asked in a panic.
"Sorry" Said the man. "I am just undoing my belt. I had a big business breakfast this morning and am feeling a bit full."
Darren breathed with relief. The man looked at him and smiled. "You didn't think I was going to do anything else did you?" he laughed. "I'd need to buy you dinner first!" He chuckled to himself.
Darren felt relieved for a bit, but then felt a bit of regret. The man was attractive and he didn't know what he would have done of he had suggested anything sexual. Darren was aware that he was staring at the man, and I think he knew it too.
"My name is Chris. I am a manager here. I take it you work in the post room?"
"Yes" Darren replied.
"Then you must have met my son Jack. He's a bit of a character. I offered him a position higher up in the company, but he said he'd rather work from the bottom up."
After that, the conversation was quite light-hearted. Chris seemed like a nice guy, for a manager, and Darren could now see the likeness between him and his son.
After his rounds were over, Darren returned to the post room.
"I met your dad" he told Jack. Jack just grimaced. "You don't get on? He seems quite nice."
"He's very nice to anyone who isn't related to him" Jack replied. "I hardly ever see him. However, I can't complain. We live in a lovely house and I get pretty much everything I want. Why not come over this weekend. I'm having a party."
"Okay" Darren replied.
The rest of the week went well. He spent quite a bit of time chatting with Jack. He offered to take the post round, hoping to meet Chris again, but he didn't, and he couldn't help feel a bit disappointed.
Saturday night came quickly, and Darren was ready for a party. He was also interested in seeing where Jack lived. He dressed in his best suit and went to the address Jack had given him. When he got there, Jack opened the door in his swimwear.
"Oh I should have told you it was a pool party. We've got an indoor pool here. I've invited some of my friends, and loads of girls. And my parents are going out, so it'll be just us!"
"I haven't go my trunks" Darren replied.
"Don't worry, my dad has got a spare pair in his room. I'm sure he won't mind. He seems to have taken a liking to you" Jack showed Darren the way to his dad's bedroom and showed him where he keeps his trunks. "We'll be down by the pool when you're done".
Darren was left alone in Chris' room. There was a huge wardrobe here with mirrored doors. He looked at himself and started to get undressed. As he stood there naked a figure appeared reflected in the mirror. It was Chris.
"Very nice" he said.

To be continued.

Seeing as others are doing it, it thought I would write a little novelette to pass the time.

Darren arrived at his new job very early on Monday morning. He was only the post boy, and at only 17 that was understandable, but he had asirations of climbing to the top of the corporate ladder.
As he entered the building he was met by Gretel, a rather odd looking lady with blonde plaits and half rimmed glasses. She could only have been in her mid twenties but her conservative style of dress made her look older. Gretel showed Darren to the post room. "Your job is straight forward" She hissed at him. "You sort the post and place them in the appropriate trays. When the trays are full, you take the trolley to the departments. You can use the service elevator at the back."

It seemed straight forward so Darren got to work. Forty-five minutes later there was a commotion at the doorway. A very handsome man, about mid thirties with short blonde hair came crashing in. "You're late Jack" Chided Gretel. "I will dock your pay"
"Aww, sweety," Jack replied "I am sure I could more than make it up to you." And he gave her a wink, at which Gretel grimaced and turned away.
Darren introduced himself to Jack and they continued working. After just over an hour, the trays were full. "It's time you took the trolley up" smiled Jack and showed you the way to the elevator.

Darren stood patiently as the elevator slowly climbed. after a few floors the lift stopped and a dark haired man in a grey suit got in. He gave a cursory glance at Darren but said nothing.
Suddenly the lift stopped. Darren looked worried and gulped. "Don't worry," Said the other man. "It often stops, however we could be here a while". With that the man turned to Darren and said "Perhaps we could find something else to pass the time." And then he started to undo his belt.

To Be Continued....

well, it feels more lonely with the upper sixth gone.
My exams are done and I am just waiting until the end of term.
James has gone and I probably won't see him again until he leaves for Uni.

I hope someone else comes who is as hot as he was.

I wonder if I should continue this blog? I only did it to write down my feelings (hence the schoolboycrush title)
Maybe I will wait to see if I fancy anyone else. Captain Jack doesn't count

My exams seem to be going okay. James hasnt really started his. I am going to miss him when he goes.
But must think about something else.
Wasn't Doctor Who Good yesterday. And Captain Jack is coming back. Yummy!

Thursday night. We met up and had something to eat. We were having a good chat about this and that. He knows I am gay but I was never sure about him.
I told him I fancied him.
I suppose I should be grateful about his reaction.
He said he didnt feel the same way back because he bats for the other side. But he was flattered and still was OK with everything. He talked about girlfriends so I guess now I know.
And now I feel such an idiot. Why did I say anything? Aaaaargh!!!!!

So I am of out in a moment. Tonights the big night.

... but James and I have arranged to go out for something to eat tomorrow night.

It's the closest we have come.

Mustn't read too much into it.

GOD he's gorgeous!

James came up to me today and we had a good chat. And he asked if we could go out either Thursday or Friday.

What did I say? YESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!! of course.

But we'll have to wait and see if it actually happens.

I dream of a kiss you know, but I may jumping several steps ahead there!

Im on study leave and I am (or I should be) revising hard.
That date never happened. Neither did the one we arranged for mid-week. We were going to go out Thursday night- but he had an accident Wednesday and has his leg in plaster. So he would even throw himself down the stairs and break his leg than go out with me

Maybe it will happen, maybe it wont. But I am running tou of time (in that respect) or perhaps I shouldnt worry about it.

Except when he smiles I melt!

Sorry for not being around too much, all this exam work is piling up.

James still smiles at me as if there was somthing more. I can't help but wonder (or is it my desires wanting too much). We never got round to going out, but he did text me this weekend. We may go out next Saturday. He kind of suggested next Saturdaym but we have made arrangements before without them going anywhere.

Perhaps I should give up..... but he is sooo gorgeous. Just looking into his blue eyes makes my knees weak!

I have been a bit low this week. I've been trying hard not to show it at school, but the inevitable has happened... kind of.
James knows I fancy him (I think) and he has kind of let on that he does NOT feel the same way. Just the things he says. But he still wants to be friends
I suppose I should be happy, that he wants to be friends but I can't make him like me.

So now I feel sad and lovesick.

Does anyone have a love potion?

... who is looking forward to going back to school?

I wonder why.

Must be the eye candy

I had a dream last night and James was in it. I was waiting for him to come over, and for some reason my other friends were in my living room practising in a band (which they never had before) and James came over to collect a photograph that I had mounted for him, and as we left the house together I tried to get him alone. Except all my other friends kept coming over and talking to us, so I couldn't speak to him. I did eventually and I asked him out again, and his reply was.....
"I have been thinking about it and I would like to but I have this life plan, where I go to universtiy, get a degree and {some kind of } high paid job and I don't think there is going to be any time for us"
"Oh I said" and let him go.

I bet that says LOT about me!!!

He didn't text back yet.

Wishing everyone a happy Easter.

I have sent James a text message, wonder if i'll get a reply?

Is this the most romantic scene from TV ever?
I am an old romantic really

Why are there a few crap comments being left here? Who are these people?

Anyway, it is Easter now and I am not sure if I am any further on with him. I have sent him a text and he has sent one back, but thats about it. He's on holiday again so I can't meet up with him, not that I am sure whether he'd want to.

There is next term I suppose, but onoy next term. After that he has left the sixth form.

Ho hum, tickle my tum.

So should I phone? or text? Is it too soon? or have I left it too late? Or should I wait until I have omething to say.

Why is this soo hard.... where's my schoolbag!

I was speaking to James today, and we were chatting about films and I said how much I liked Daniel Craig as Bond and he said "Really? He doesn't do anything for me". Now is that an indication? Or is it my imagination.

Oh and one step further... we have swapped mobile numbers

Oh and evn more embarrassing, after chatting, I had a boner , took a while to relax

He told me in the week that he couldnt come to the party, but part of me was still hoping. But he didnt come.
I feel so embarrassed now, I have made such a fool of myself.
And I also feel a bit down, because I like him so much and I dont think it's going to happen.

Anyone fancy cheering me up by telling me things like "You're still young" and "There's plenty of fish in the sea" or even "He doesn't deserve you"

I have spoken to James a couple of times this week, but not in any great depth. I keep thinking now that there may not be any real romance going to happen, but I am also thinking now that Paul B may be right in saying that to get a friend who enjoys my company and accepts me for who I am maybe even more valuable. Whether it happens or not, I have done well.

Accept I hope it really happens. Just a kiss would be nice

I have invited him to a party next Saturday. He hasnt said yes or no. I'll just have to wait and see

I wonder if anyone is interested in last nights party? It was quite a good night, I soent a bit of time with James but he was flitting around being very sociable. WE did dnace together (well not together- more the we were both dancing) and he seemed quite comfortable. He still smiles at me and it makes my knees go week.
He then told me that he looked for me on Friday after school to see if I wanted to go for a coffee, but I had already gone home. Damnit! Fate conspiring again. So I said "Why not next Friday" becuase that event that got cancelled on the snow day is being held on friday, but he is going away this weekend... Fate again.

I keep thinking about him. I saw his face when I woke up this morning.

I dont know if this counts as good news or bad news but I told him I was Gay today. He didnt run a mile. We just carried on chatting.

Even after that encouragin week, we still haven't arranged a date. I don't want to press it, but I do feel more able that I can now without worrying too much if I am barking up the wrong tree.

And there is the party next weekend....

Today I had to speak to James about something school related. At the end of the short conversation he said "We never got chance to go out for that coffee, we really must." so I said "Are you sure, because I didn't want to be too.. you know"
"No, dont worry about that. t's just that I ahve been busy" Which he has- very busy boy
"Well, let me know. I'll look forward to it" I said
And then he smiled at me and wished me a good day.

And I was smiling for the rest of the day.

Its Wednesday.
On Monday I went back to school and I decided that perhaps I made too much of a fool of myself last half term and that this half term I was gonna sit back and do nothing. And for the past two days I didnt even see him.
But today he smailed at me and said good morning and my heart melted again and all those wants came back just as strong. He makes me go weak in the knees and he doesnt know
Perhaps he never will
Or maybe this is the half term when it will all fall in to place..... after all, what are the chances of snow again????

... tomorrow.

I wonder what this half term will hold.

Or I will hold?

I had a dream last night. I dreamt that I was at home with my family and I hadn't noticed that I had missed two clls on my phone, and it was James phoning. And on the last day of half term I had given him my phone number (which I hadnt) and he was calling to arrange a date. And I told him that I was worried that I was being too forward and he said "I did think you were to begin with but then I thought why not". And we arranged a date.

But that was a dream, and at the moment I am at home at half term not doing much, wondering where he is- he did tell me he was going away to Germany for the week.

My school shut, the evening event is cancelled. I should be happy