Who knows what or who the new year wil bring

Happy New Year everyone

It's been a tough old time this year. My Brothers Girlfriend has been hassling my mother, who in turn has been retaliating in kind. Why cant they just get on.
Other than that I havent done much. Not gone out much at all, I think I am looking forward to going back to school. It's like a bit of normality compared to the pressure at home.

And of course, I will see HIM again

My mum and my brothers girlfriend dont get on. She's pregnant and has told my mum that she will not let her see the baby's when they are born and my mum counters with "well I am going to write you out of my will then"
And here I am like a bloody "Fairy in the middle" trying to appease both of them.

Wonder what J is doing?

I'm not thinking about him
I'm not thinking about him
I'm not thinking about him
I'm not thinking about him
Ok I am thinking about him

I have the CHristmas card he gave me next to the bed. I wonder where he keeps the one I gave him.?

But Christmas is going to now consist of me trying to stop my mum murdering my brother's girlfriend

School is over now and I am not sure what I am going to do with myself for two weeks. After the high of the theatre trip, th last few days has been disappointing. What I really want to do is rush into things, but I feel I should take my time.

I just hope that he is thinkin of me as much as I am thinking of him.

I have been so happy all night. I could hardly sleep! Why?
Because last night was the theatre trip- the one I went on because I knew that James was going on it too.
WEll, on the coach down I sat next to Alison and we had a good chat but at the theatre I was sitting next to....... James
Yes in fact he had got two tickets and asked to sit next to me. That was great! We had such a good time chatting and stuff.
And then he sat next to me on the coach back and we just chatted about things we like.

And I am still buzzing about it.

:D

Don't forget to vote tonight for Leona, the rightful winner of X-Factor

I sent an email back. I wrote it several times before I was happy about it, which is bizarre seeing it is hardly two lines long.

No reply.

What have I done

Dear James
every time I see you my heart skips a beat. I start to sweat and you make me go tongue tied. Your smile warms my heart and your eyes are deep and sexy. I want to tell you how much I like you. thanks for the info

I got an email from James today at school. It really didnt say anything special- just information about a school trip, but receiving it made me feel good.

Now should I send a reply? It's not the sort of thing you can reply to but ...... I dont know

Am I fooling myself? Everytime I see him I go weak and my stomach flips over (Butterflies) but I can't bring myself to say anything. Perhaps I should just ignore the feelin and hope it goes away.

I think he is out of my league anyway

IT's the school christmas lunch this week. WE all have to go and it's never very good. Processed turkey slices which are cold. runny gravy and stuffing ball, sprouts and some potatoes which are supposed to be cooked.

School dinners eh? No spices here Mr Oliver

I am glad that Matt won the Celebrity program (He looks a bit like James ) IT was good stuff, but I don't think I would have eaten all that stuff he had to eat.

And I hope Leona wins the X-factor and I am glad that the Macdonalds are out.

I bumped into James in the toilet today. We had a chat and a joke and I left with a smile. Is that tantamount to cottaging? D